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Hey guys,im now trying the latest blogger's latest vision :D Quite nice and I love it !  Well,this blog post that Im goin to write is all about my past or my feeling that I really need a little space to scream out by at least i can feel better :) Ermm,this is going to be a long post. If you dont want to read it,just click red [X] up there ! :D Im just write for myself ! HAHA.baby face ritw now....


Sometimes,Im really tired of this world.The people in this world.They used to judge the people by the outlooking,it would really be a nice world without those realistic people.And ... there will be no hurt and pressure . Well,this world had taught me so many things. I should be grateful for it.But i rather not to be born in such a world. It's sucks. Leaving scar on people's heart. The scar will keep on haunting on the mirror.
Since primary Idk whats wrong with the fate,my best friends are always the beauty and the popular one in our school. So you know what ? Boys used to say to me :" Hey,why your bff are so pretty and skinny but then how come you are exactly opposite some more you can mix with them well ! Take my hats off to you ! Such an outlooking also can be friend with pretty girls. OMG! Amazing! *Blah blah blah* " The most hurtful word ever in my life ! I was just a primary kid ! You dont have to say such a mean word to me even if I had done wrong or offence ppl! LOL. Yah,you've taught me that outlooking is really important to a person.Free to judge everything base on the outlooking of the people . 














 Kidding and joking. If you were just kindly joking with me , thats okay. Anything you can joke about but not my family and something thats over my line. *Fierce tone BUAHAHA* Be serious! Okay,I wont take it on heart,really! There's one thing i can say is : Im really get used to it.Even Im really angry about , it wouldn't lasted for many many hours or days.Give a fuck to those craps for what?Waste time only. 

But you guys knw what? When I said Im get used of it,it doesnt means that it's not hurt !Take note about that :) By the way,joking for many times of something isn't funny at all. The first or second time,I would just LOL with it.But when it comes to my ear for thousand times....hey Im boring with it.Just get a latest joke which can make me LOL. In fact,joking of my outlook would make me have no faith in myself as I believe that Im really that worst look bcoz everyone's joking about it.Know what?It's hurtful.I've really tried to make myself look better or improve my look everyday,I had tried my best.But when your laughness about whattf of me,I would just give up and sink myself in despair,asking myself and scolding :" Hey bitch,this is a cruel world.Your looks is amazingly worst and ugly in the whole world.HAHA,great!Just get this shitty look off from the mirror,it even makes me want to puke!" Thats what i speak to myself last time. Now? idk. 



Dont ever look at my picture. Of course I wouldn't post my ugly pictar for you guys to enjoy HAHA! Just take me as a faker on internet.In fact,I wasnt pretty as the pictar shown. My relative always laugh at my outlook too,LOL,thats what I said: I've get used to it already. I had a pretty cousin , everyone loves her and dote her very very much.I was really boyish and clumsy last time.Hangging out with my boy cousin to play stupid games. Guess what ,those boy cousin didn't like me at all.They rather call my pretty cousin out than calling mie :( When I tagged along(thick face),they purposely show an unhappy face and mumbling :"Stupid worms which likes to follow people's ass." HAHA,I dont care at all.I love to have fun with them,but they dont knw that i was really upset and crying when i was showering. LOL,just laugh it XD

My mum told me that there's my grandmum's friends judging my looks while i was just a new born baby.because I was only with three hair HAHAHA! LOL,cant stop laughing at myself. Only my grandparents and father show favouritism on this ugly child. I love them so muchieeee! <3 
Yea,Im with my tan skin :) So what ? Believe or not,Im really fair when I was three years old ! Yah,I love sunlight and beaches,I had went to Pulau-Pulau in Malaysia. So yeaaaaaa,they did a 'great' work on my skin :( I dont even know what's sunblock that times! (Innocent+stupid)

What Indian indian indian black skin malay whatsoever,i dont care zzzz. LOL. Childish.


I dont like to take pic sometimes,because I look sucks. I seriously seriously very seriously hate taking ugly photo. That annoying moment when you saw your ugly pictar on the internet. Maybe the people beside you in the photo looks nice so they jus geh geh says :" NOOO! You're pretty ! " Hypocrites,I always says that please just edit my face/draw my whole face or hide it with some cartoons or whatever.But they didn't. They just want to show people they're prettier and scare that if they draw my face the photo will nt look nice anymore. Fuck it , i rather dont want to take pictar.So here I want to say,if i've post you guys' ugly photo or what,just ask me to delete it or hide your face okay?Dont worry,I wont be unhappy or what :D  No offence,I just want to make things clear. Dont curse me in your heart okay :D 

 Thick face. Some of you guys knw,Im thick face. HHA,actually it's a form of escapism. Of course I knw I wasnt really pretty and hot . Im just want to make you guys laugh :) 

Comparison. I really that being compared by others.EXTREMELY HATE IT. Compare me with other people is the thing i hate most in my life.It seems like this is one of the hobby of my family,relative and friends.Just go on compare me with other people,I will hate you :) Lots of example I can say somebody compare me with other people saying i wasnt good or pretty enough + all those hurtful words.Just skip it,because IM TIRED OF IT.
 Think twice before you speak,because it may hurts people's heart.I had a bad influence of it,when you guys start judging the outlook ,i start to judge people's face too. I wish+hope I wouldn't do that kind of criticism on anyone else. I dont want leaving scar and make people hate me. God,please help me get rid of this stupid bad influence !


Im seeking encouragment , not your judgement :)




Nah,show off my ugly picture when I was in primary six. The fat ass at the right with orange colour hat :) Yea,thats me. Say Hi to mie yah ! HAHA!

Im now still with that look HAHA! LOL! Dont need you guys' judgement,i knw im ugly :'D



p/s:sory for late update my blog.quite bz catch after myy class..wahh..exam just around the corner.wis for me:P..

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10 comments:

~Nana 귀여운~ said...

u not ugly la...sis tengok ok jer... :)

Kim Hyun Arry said...

haha,,perghh,,pnjg entry u kli nie bro,,huhu,,btw its nice,,kyte hrus jd dri sndri dan itu bnde baik dri kyte jd org len kan..so hdup kne lah happy k,,huhu..

hafrawiey ozakawa said...

k.nana:wahhh..tengs for ur praise.btw...i x kn over feeling...haha...

kim hyun arry:really,is it long entry?i dun think so la..mcm biaser jerkk..kuikuikui.insyaAllah.i will be my own self.dun worry

Yasmin ♥ said...

Follow dahh ;)
Tenkiu singgah !

~ pEJuAnG CiNtA ~ said...

wah bgus nyer english kamu !! teruskan usaha ! btw nice story ~

Eazy Izzuddin said...

ok je...
nice..
:)

hafrawiey ozakawa said...

pejuang cinta:tengs la..my eng not to well...

eazy:ape yg ok?hehe.next.tengs jugak

azad said...

nice one. even take 15 minutes to finish. =)

cinnamon.com said...

nice pic..

hafrawiey ozakawa said...

azad:tengs for ur reading...kuikui...

cinnamon:nice erk??biaser je..**(muke tunduk bagai merendah diri)