Hey guys,im now trying the latest blogger's latest vision :D Quite nice and I love it ! Well,this blog post that Im goin to write is all about my past or my feeling that I really need a little space to scream out by at least i can feel better :) Ermm,this is going to be a long post. If you dont want to read it,just click red [X] up there ! :D Im just write for myself ! HAHA.baby face ritw now....
Sometimes,Im really tired of this world.The people in this world.They used to judge the people by the outlooking,it would really be a nice world without those realistic people.And ... there will be no hurt and pressure . Well,this world had taught me so many things. I should be grateful for it.But i rather not to be born in such a world. It's sucks. Leaving scar on people's heart. The scar will keep on haunting on the mirror.
But you guys knw what? When I said Im get used of it,it doesnt means that it's not hurt !Take note about that :) By the way,joking for many times of something isn't funny at all. The first or second time,I would just LOL with it.But when it comes to my ear for thousand times....hey Im boring with it.Just get a latest joke which can make me LOL. In fact,joking of my outlook would make me have no faith in myself as I believe that Im really that worst look bcoz everyone's joking about it.Know what?It's hurtful.I've really tried to make myself look better or improve my look everyday,I had tried my best.But when your laughness about whattf of me,I would just give up and sink myself in despair,asking myself and scolding :" Hey bitch,this is a cruel world.Your looks is amazingly worst and ugly in the whole world.HAHA,great!Just get this shitty look off from the mirror,it even makes me want to puke!" Thats what i speak to myself last time. Now? idk.
My mum told me that there's my grandmum's friends judging my looks while i was just a new born baby.because I was only with three hair HAHAHA! LOL,cant stop laughing at myself. Only my grandparents and father show favouritism on this ugly child. I love them so muchieeee! <3
What Indian indian indian black skin malay whatsoever,i dont care zzzz. LOL. Childish.
I dont like to take pic sometimes,because I look sucks. I seriously seriously very seriously hate taking ugly photo. That annoying moment when you saw your ugly pictar on the internet. Maybe the people beside you in the photo looks nice so they jus geh geh says :" NOOO! You're pretty ! " Hypocrites,I always says that please just edit my face/draw my whole face or hide it with some cartoons or whatever.But they didn't. They just want to show people they're prettier and scare that if they draw my face the photo will nt look nice anymore. Fuck it , i rather dont want to take pictar.So here I want to say,if i've post you guys' ugly photo or what,just ask me to delete it or hide your face okay?Dont worry,I wont be unhappy or what :D No offence,I just want to make things clear. Dont curse me in your heart okay :D
Comparison. I really that being compared by others.EXTREMELY HATE IT. Compare me with other people is the thing i hate most in my life.It seems like this is one of the hobby of my family,relative and friends.Just go on compare me with other people,I will hate you :) Lots of example I can say somebody compare me with other people saying i wasnt good or pretty enough + all those hurtful words.Just skip it,because IM TIRED OF IT.
Im seeking encouragment , not your judgement :)
Nah,show off my ugly picture when I was in primary six. The fat ass at the right with orange colour hat :) Yea,thats me. Say Hi to mie yah ! HAHA!
Im now still with that look HAHA! LOL! Dont need you guys' judgement,i knw im ugly :'D