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Hey guys,im now trying the latest blogger's latest vision :D Quite nice and I love it ! Well,this blog post that Im goin to write is all about my past or my feeling that I really need a little space to scream out by at least i can feel better :) Ermm,this is going to be a long post. If you dont want to read it,just click red [X] up there ! :D Im just write for myself ! HAHA.baby face ritw now....
Sometimes,Im really tired of this world.The people in this world.They used to judge the people by the outlooking,it would really be a nice world without those realistic people.And ... there will be no hurt and pressure . Well,this world had taught me so many things. I should be grateful for it.But i rather not to be born in such a world. It's sucks. Leaving scar on people's heart. The scar will keep on haunting on the mirror.
Since primary Idk whats wrong with the fate,my best friends are always the beauty and the popular one in our school. So you know what ? Boys used to say to me :" Hey,why your bff are so pretty and skinny but then how come you are exactly opposite some more you can mix with them well ! Take my hats off to you ! Such an outlooking also can be friend with pretty girls. OMG! Amazing! *Blah blah blah* " The most hurtful word ever in my life ! I was just a primary kid ! You dont have to say such a mean word to me even if I had done wrong or offence ppl! LOL. Yah,you've taught me that outlooking is really important to a person.Free to judge everything base on the outlooking of the people .
Kidding and joking. If you were just kindly joking with me ,
thats okay. Anything you can joke about but not my family and something thats
over my line. *Fierce tone BUAHAHA* Be serious! Okay,I wont take it on
heart,really! There's one thing i can say is : Im really get used to it.Even Im
really angry about , it wouldn't lasted for many many hours or days.Give a fuck
to those craps for what?Waste time only.
But you guys knw what? When
I said Im get used of it,it doesnt means that it's not hurt !Take
note about that :) By the way,joking for many times of something isn't funny at
all. The first or second time,I would just LOL with it.But when it
comes to my ear for thousand times....hey Im boring with it.Just get a latest
joke which can make me LOL. In fact,joking of my outlook would make me
have no faith in myself as I believe that Im really that worst look bcoz
everyone's joking about it.Know what?It's hurtful.I've really tried to make
myself look better or improve my look everyday,I had tried my best.But when
your laughness about whattf of me,I would just give up and sink myself in
despair,asking myself and scolding :" Hey bitch,this is a cruel world.Your
looks is amazingly worst and ugly in the whole world.HAHA,great!Just get
this shitty look off from the mirror,it even makes me want to puke!"
Thats what i speak to myself last time. Now? idk.
Dont ever look at my picture. Of course I wouldn't post my
ugly pictar for you guys to enjoy HAHA! Just take me as a faker on
internet.In fact,I wasnt pretty as the pictar shown. My relative always
laugh at my outlook too,LOL,thats what I said: I've get used to it
already. I had a pretty cousin , everyone loves her and dote her very
very much.I was really boyish and clumsy last time.Hangging out with my boy
cousin to play stupid games. Guess what ,those boy cousin didn't like me at
all.They rather call my pretty cousin out than calling mie :( When I
tagged along(thick face),they purposely show an unhappy face and
mumbling :"Stupid worms which likes to follow people's
ass." HAHA,I dont care at all.I love to have fun with them,but they
dont knw that i was really upset and crying when i was
showering. LOL,just laugh it XD
My mum told me that there's
my grandmum's friends judging my looks while i was just a new born baby.because
I was only with three hair HAHAHA! LOL,cant stop laughing at myself. Only my
grandparents and father show favouritism on this ugly child. I love them so
muchieeee! <3
Yea,Im with my tan skin :) So what ? Believe or not,Im really
fair when I was three years old ! Yah,I love sunlight and beaches,I
had went to Pulau-Pulau in Malaysia. So yeaaaaaa,they did a 'great'
work on my skin :( I dont even know what's sunblock that times!
(Innocent+stupid)
What Indian indian indian
black skin malay whatsoever,i dont care zzzz. LOL. Childish.
I dont like to take pic
sometimes,because I look sucks. I seriously seriously very seriously hate
taking ugly photo. That annoying moment when you saw your ugly pictar on the
internet. Maybe the people beside you in the photo looks nice so they jus geh
geh says :" NOOO! You're pretty ! " Hypocrites,I always says that
please just edit my face/draw my whole face or hide it with some cartoons or
whatever.But they didn't. They just want to show people they're prettier
and scare that if they draw my face the photo will nt look nice anymore. Fuck
it , i rather dont want to take pictar.So here I want to say,if i've post you
guys' ugly photo or what,just ask me to delete it or hide your face okay?Dont
worry,I wont be unhappy or what :D No offence,I just want to make
things clear. Dont curse me in your heart okay :D
Thick face. Some of you guys knw,Im thick face. HHA,actually
it's a form of escapism. Of course I knw I wasnt really pretty and hot . Im
just want to make you guys laugh :)
Comparison. I really that
being compared by others.EXTREMELY HATE IT. Compare me with other people
is the thing i hate most in my life.It seems like this is one of
the hobby of my family,relative and friends.Just go on compare me with
other people,I will hate you :) Lots of example I can say somebody compare me
with other people saying i wasnt good or pretty enough + all those hurtful
words.Just skip it,because IM TIRED OF IT.
Think twice before you speak,because it may hurts people's
heart.I had a bad influence of it,when you guys start judging the outlook
,i start to judge people's face too. I wish+hope I wouldn't do that kind of
criticism on anyone else. I dont want leaving scar and make people hate me.
God,please help me get rid of this stupid bad influence !
Im seeking encouragment ,
not your judgement :)
Nah,show off my ugly
picture when I was in primary six. The fat ass at the right with orange colour
hat :) Yea,thats me. Say Hi to mie yah ! HAHA!
Im now still with that look
HAHA! LOL! Dont need you guys' judgement,i knw im ugly :'D
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